September Like the last post, life had been pretty calm, and able to do things calmly, with no real stress. I had started to get the sensation of anxiety coming back. I knew that the calmness was beginning to come to the end. I know while writing, this. It is only short term. The feelings being back made me know that this will also affect me. By causing problems with my type of Cerebral Palsy. October This month was the same although the sense of anxiety was getting stronger and stronger. I had been feeling more and more anxious about the future. I did do the 1st step which was a kind of relief.  Yet the uncertainty of the future means my cerebral palsy has been affected. Yet I don’t know how just yet. November This month again had been a mixed bag of feelings. I was able to get Christmas almost completed before the actual event. The stress was beginning to start showing itself. Through tightness of muscles and the inability to wind down. December This month was the end of what was a f

  This is the continuing series of posts regarding my thoughts about the year. For myself before moving on about this year. May This month was quiet and was a month where I continued doing the things that made me feel better and recovering from the feelings of anxiety and fear that had been over me for so long. I didn’t realise until recently how pressured I had been whilst living in the previous place with the family.  Covid hadn’t disrupted me that much as I hadn’t been out much during the winter and early spring. As the weather affects the way cerebral palsy causes issues for me in the season. So I was enjoying a bit of freedom but still limiting the amount I went out because of the pandemic  June This month was much the same as before and started looking after myself mentally and physically in some ways that I can. This included and still includes the following: Manicure Lashes tinted  Eyebrows tinted and tidied Hair cut July Again this was similar to the previous month. So it was

We are coming out the other side!  So it's coming to the end of 2021 and the world has been in the most horrific since the end of 2019 when the world first heard of COVID-19 and the global pandemic first started. I have spoken about this in various posts such as Is this going to be another groundhog year ? But is the new year ahead of going to be the same as the last 2?  There was a comment made about previous pandemics that I realised was a good observation and that the average time a pandemic lasts is 3 years. The most notable one is the Spanish flu which I mentioned in keeping your distance to stay safe . And that was from December 1918 to the middle of 1921 towards the end of the year. Right now Since beginning to write this post there is another variation of COVID-19 that was discovered in South Africa very recently so things have become more difficult again. But changes are happening all the time so it can be a real struggle to know what to do for the best.   What can everyon

What I think it has? I think the new year has a lot of good things happening. Not everything is going to be what I wanted it to be. That's ok though just the same as 2021.  There, as I said, have been lots of changes in the way things are regarding my disability. I think that the changes will be positive for the future to a certain degree. I'm hoping to have the final place, but it may not happen. We'll see. That's ok though because there is always going to be positive and negative. No matter what. What do I want from 2022 ? All I want is a way of being able to be safe and yet not stressed out too much. I know that this is going to be a difficult year ahead with the way that my family is going to have a head regarding their own situation such as GCSEs and a new place. We don't know what could actually be happening. We just have to take it month by month.  So that means that we have to think about what is going on each month and make a small p

It's the final month of the year. Quiet often it's a crazy one, getting ready for Christmas. This is the final month of a bit of space before the year of transition yet again. This year has been amazing in so many different ways. There has been some problems with the world. What with the pandemic and the way it's still effecting the world in so many ways.  A lot of things however going, back to normal, as I have mentioned in many of my other posts such as  When change is coming  and  Moving on .  Yet recently my brain has decided to almost shut down. I think that's because there's been so much going on that I haven't been able to really deal with things on a daily basis. And so my brain was in so much a disarray. I have had to plan so much ahead for the future, because things are still up in the air despite being safe for now. I wish to be able just live from day to day rather than have to plan so much ahead. And that is something that I needed because there'

Oh my goodness what a crazy year this has been. A quarter of which has been in yet another lockdown because of the pandemic. If you didn’t know about it, where have you been? This year has been a year of almost normality yet not! There have been things that have been shut, new rules to follow set by the government. Then more changes as some of the rules were reversed. And as I write more things are happening.  In the sense that other countries are opening up for us to travel to but not everywhere. What has this year given me? This year has given me a real sense of change in myself. Yes, I have cerebral palsy but the fact I moved house at the end of 2020. That was a big change in its self after 23 years in the same place. It was a positive move although there were challenges. What hasn't this year given me? The biggest thing is that it hasn't allowed me to get the dream home the way I wanted but that's ok. There are more changes ahead but they are for the future of me and m

 I t's still a lockdown in February. Nothing has changed since the beginning of Christmas 2020. Except everything has changed there are millions of people who have had their first immunisation jab to the virus. Yet millions are still waiting for their first. HOW ARE YOU GETTING ON IN THIS LOCKDOWN. You are not the only one who is struggling! Remember everyone in this whole world is in a similar situation to yourself. So if you need to talk to people then do so. You can always contact me using email if you feel that you have no one to go to. Use your phone or the internet. If you can. Listen to your favourite books or podcasts. Such as Sweetestmoonduststyle . If you don’t haven’t any then binge on your favourite movies or shows. By DVD or by streaming such as Netflix or Amazon Prime . My favourite movies and shows are as follows: The Post Les Miserables Picard The Marvelous Mrs Maisel Just to name a few. My fave books are as follows: Complete works of Jane Austen Terry Pratchett Di