Sunday, December 12
What I think it has?
I think the new year has a lot of good things happening. Not everything is going to be what I wanted it to be. That's ok though just the same as 2021.
There, as I said, have been lots of changes in the way things are regarding my disability. I think that the changes will be positive for the future to a certain degree. I'm hoping to have the final place, but it may not happen. We'll see. That's ok though because there is always going to be positive and negative. No matter what.
What do I want from 2022 ?
All I want is a way of being able to be safe and yet not stressed out too much. I know that this is going to be a difficult year ahead with the way that my family is going to have a head regarding their own situation such as GCSEs and a new place. We don't know what could actually be happening. We just have to take it month by month.
So that means that we have to think about what is going on each month and make a small plan so that we have a monthly plan rather than a big goal for the entire year as something we can grasp on to.
And that's what I think is going to be something that is going to help me as a person with anxiety. But it's also a lesson that I need to learn.
What I don't want from 2022?
I don't want to disabled person to be so stressed out that I'm panicking in a day-to-day situation for everything that has to be dealt with.
I can manage if things are the occasional hiccup, but if there are lots of things that are causing issues then I will be full of anxiety and not wanting to do anything and instead wanting to hide so that is a negative side of 2022. Knowing what my disability holds in general makes it a lot harder at times to realise what we can do and what can happen and what help we have available.
What will I be doing in 2022?
I will be getting ready for the new home sorting things out to get to that stage and before setting down hopefully in the new final home but we can't confirm or any of that for the next year until the end of the year. I'm going to be tentative about moving in this time next year, ready for the new place.
My plan for now is to take each task that makes the future safe and secure for me and my family. As I know that the future can be very uncertain yet I can make it as safe as I possibly can. That is all I can do for now.
Thursday, September 30
Oh no! Not again!
I have been struggling with things the last few weeks. I hate having them but depression and anxiety have been a real big struggle for me and I’m still having moments daily with anxiety kicking in. I know why but they are things that are out of my control. These are things that change the future of myself and the family and these things are scary. They are exciting but scary too.
Dealing with each emotion as they come:
For me, 4 main emotions come across me in anxiety and these are:
These are because of the worry for the future and my family and the fact I am worried that what I want for the future
I have an amazing family and I am not sure what is going to happen in the future for them. I want them to be happy and do exactly what they want to do. Even if at the moment I have to consider my own life at the same time for the now.
Here things seem to be more stressful. But here are where things are less controllable. Because of the things I am planning for the future. I find that the people I am waiting for have their decision before I can take the next step for our goals.
This feeling is because of the worry from the plan not going ahead as planned
Again this emotion is coming up because of the other feelings that are brought up by other peoples actions or lack of action. Causing the uncertainty of the future for everyone else. Because I am not really worried about myself.
What do I do?
- Acknowledge the feelings
- Keep busy
- Listen to podcasts
- Listen to music
- Write my posts here.
But there are lots of different ways you can deal with them. Some of them are negative so although they are known I won’t mention them here. But the following are:
- Watching movies
- Listening to podcasts
- Listening to books (Audible)
- Have a shower
- Eat comfort food.
This is up to you because anxiety and depression are often interlinked and can be helped. Although it is said that you can be cured I feel that you can’t be cured but it can be held at bay for an indefinite length of time. As it's always possibly going to come back because of some event that could trigger it.
Because of my own feelings that I mention I have decided to incorporate various things here so that there are different ways to show you that although there are many differences between people like me with disabilities and those of you who are reading this post who don’t have any physical condition but yet suffer from similar mental conditions. I am starting to bring things to a complete circle to prove that we are capable of doing things. There will be various ways to learn about cerebral palsy from a personal view. I can’t wait to show you.
There are many things that I would love to be able to do. Many of which are out of the question. And yet there are many that I can do.
My favourite things are books, makeup and music just to name a few.
Bookwise I read a few favourites, such as @TerryPrattchet, @AgathaChristie, and @SirArthurConnnanDoyle. Although I am endeavouring to read more and different people. However, I am constantly drawn to my favourites especially when I am feeling low.
New Challenges Suffering from clinical depression as part of my life because of cerebral palsy I end up feeling like hiding away and doing nothing. Yet as a child I remember my mum using my great grandmother's sewing machine. I remember her making dresses and quilting using scrap material.
As a child with cerebral palsy my agility and control of a foot pedal for a sewing machine was inconsistent. Meaning that it would sometimes become impossible possible for me to control the material and the speed of it going through the machine.
But the thought of being able to make things for me has always been in my mind. As a teenager, I would make my own jewellery.
New Challenges. Similar to the items in the pictures above. However due to my age now and the effect cerebral palsy has on my fine motor skills, making it is harder to do the fiddly things. They are harder but not impossible.
So after going through a cognitive therapy course early last year I decided to go to a group set up by a local charity called #InvolveKent. In which I have been learning how to use an electric sewing machine. I have also become more able to use the pedal. which is a great thing to check my maintenance in certain joints such as the ankle So although it won't be as neat as some at the moment I can do it. Or as the saying goes "do now get perfect later". I think the quote was said by @RichardBranson but I could be wrong. For me, this saying is so true and has a meaning that I am just learning.
But since selling the house my sewing has stopped as my machine is packed up ready for when we do move house. Are there any challenges new or old that you have? I'd love to know about them. Love and Peace Xxx
I love a good Tassimo Costa Coffee Latte, however, if my budget doesn't stretch to that as it's on the average £5 per box of 8 drinks I will pick the less expensive but just as delicious Tassimo L'OR Latte Macchiato Coffee Pods which is £4.50 a box. These prices were correct at the time of original posting.
These drinks are made via pods rather than say the Nespresso Essenza Mini Coffee Machine with Aeroccino, Pure White by Magimix
which is done only by using capsules, your own milk and an aerator to froth up the milk
There is another cheap coffee system which I have used and did like very much which is the Dolce Gusto Coffee Machine
which again like Tassimo uses pods. They are just as good as the Tassimo although they do not have such big names as Suchard, Twinings, or Cadburys and Costa Coffee supporting them.
But you know coffee isn't just the latte or cappuccino that you have with amazing friends or that few moments that you have to have to yourself in the day and have your treat in the form of a cup of coffee.
It has been said that it can help kick your metabolism into action and help your body use your fat cells as energy too particularly if you drink it black according to The Times of India and an article. There are also more benefits which are mentioned in caffeine informer. These include helping against depression, focus, and even states that it can help lower the possibility to have Alzheimer's. I personally can't vouch for these claims but I do know that it does keep me more awake and give me more energy when I need it.
There are other ways of having coffee, like having it through a french press
Which you can get anywhere, like Tescos, Sainsbury's, Amazon or you can get a coffee machine
similar to the above filter coffee machine.
So if you love a cup of coffee there are lots of different ways of getting this healthy yet naughty drink. I say it's naughty because if you add milk and sugar they divert the goodness away according to the articles.
Right now I am considering to try a coffee black in the morning to kick start my own body and firstly I will be trying an Americano every morning for the next two weeks and see what the reactions I get with my own body. I then will post my reaction for two weeks on.
Love and Peace
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