January has Almost gone: Winter is half gone! with Cerebral Palsy playing

 A new month!

January is going. Tomorrow is the first day of February. Has anything changed for you?

Have you had to stay in more because of what has happened in the last year and this new month that’s just going?

Lots of little things have happened this month certainly for me. Some of the things I couldn’t control and others I could, that’s ok!

You know what though, February is a new month. Each day is like the new day of a book. I acknowledge that I am the one in charge of what I think and what I can do. There are lots of things I can’t do but I know what I can, that is important to realise.

There are days particularly in the winter when I do struggle with my condition. It makes me feel like I’m not capable of anything I mentioned feeling low several times in posts such as Urgh the feeling and Urgh again as well as Urgh!!! Cerebral Palsy can take a long run and jump. These posts are all written either in late Autumn or throughout Winter. S.A.D is also a possibility as my moods change as the seasons’ change.

The move and it's effects

Since the move, I know that it's just my cerebral palsy that is making me feel low. It frustrates me so much at times. Because of the energy, it is zapping from me. I think of what I should be doing as a mum, and as a wife, but I know it makes me feel guilty for having the Cerebral Palsy as I am too tired to do what is required at times.

The place we are living in is making me feel a lot safer and more confident in what I can do. I am a lot happier than I was before. At the old home

What now!

But now and then, the feeling of exhaustion. Just from day to day living wipes me out. On those days I just want to curl up, sleep until I feel better.

I realise that it is very much to do with what cerebral palsy has done damage wise. Causing more depression episodes the older I get. Due to the change in my own body’s ability to live from day-to-day.

If you are in a similar situation then check out Liz Whitely Counselling and her blog. In the post, I have linked above is all about cerebral palsy and mental illnesses particularly depression and all it's’ types. If you are really struggling mentally because of your condition then please contact her through the link and she will be able to help you in many ways.

Another way of getting help is by getting in touch with the Cerebral Palsy Advice UK Group here in the UK where they can help and point you in the right direction for the help you really need.

Love and peace

xxx

Is This Going To Be Another Groundhog Year? Again!!

 It's still a lockdown in February. Nothing has changed since the beginning of Christmas 2020. Except everything has changed there are millions of people who have had their first immunisation jab to the virus. Yet millions are still waiting for their first.

HOW ARE YOU GETTING ON IN THIS LOCKDOWN.

You are not the only one who is struggling!

Remember everyone in this whole world is in a similar situation to yourself. So if you need to talk to people then do so. You can always contact me using email if you feel that you have no one to go to. Use your phone or the internet. If you can.

Listen to your favourite books or podcasts. Such as Sweetestmoonduststyle. If you don’t haven’t any then binge on your favourite movies or shows. By DVD or by streaming such as Netflix or Amazon Prime.

My favourite movies and shows are as follows:

1. The Post
2. Les Miserables
3. Picard
4. The Marvelous Mrs Maisel

Just to name a few.

My fave books are as follows:

1. Complete works of Jane Austen
2. Terry Pratchett Discworld Series
3. The Complete Sherlock Holmes

Although I read various types those are my go tos for comfort. I can put my mind in those places and be a visual observer of the story. Rather than going somewhere new and pay more attention to what is going on.

Therefore, this is my safe place mentally although I do read several different types of books.

Another thing to do is to listen to positive music. This is my Spotify List with music from the 40s up to now.

Or listen to some amazing positive podcasts. The following are my go-to positive shows if I really need a boost Be Positive Stay Positive and Every Day Positivity. Another Helpful podcast I listen to is Happy Place and this is done by Fearne Cotton. She also has written books that I love, giving tips on the inside chatter, negativity etc.

STILL, STRUGGLING WITH WHAT'S GOING ON?

It's ok to be in the mood that you are alone but you must realise that you are not alone. A way to resolve an issue would be to help the elderly or disabled locally if you can. But if you cant just ring them up so that they know that tyhe6y are not alone just like you.

It is different living with one or more people because you can talk to that person or people. There are times when you want to be silent and just recharge your batteries. This is a good idea especially as you sometimes clash emotionally and verbally.

You’re not the only one who is feeling like this right now. Everyone is to some degree. Remember that your well being is the first thing to think of before trying to help anyone else because if you don’t look after yourself then you will not be able to help anyone else.

So take a deep breath and take that first step to your self-care before anyone else.

WHATS NEXT!

I am writing this towards the end of the month and tonight the UK prime minister is laying out his next move for here. Hopefully, things will be heading to a positive future but no one truly knows what is in the future. Even before the virus made more problems for the world.

The virus has no bounds and does not pick any particular race, colour or religion so by looking after yourself and your family. If in a house with other people then ensure that you all work together and get this world back to some kind of normality.

I need to be in some kind of bubble because of cerebral palsy and luckily I am with my family. I miss going out to see my friends and getting fresh air. Winter is drawing to a close, spring is coming at what seems to be a quick pace. This is when I tend to go out more in any case because of the warmer weather and the way it eases my cerebral palsy. I still also listen and read. There are days that I feel completely worn out and just want to do nothing. That’s ok too!

Don’t panic too much and get your inoculation if you are offered it and just carry on protecting yourself and those you love until we get back to some kind of normality because I very much doubt that the world will be the same again.